Family of 6 in PA

Finished Pyramid of Lies by Anne Marie Winston. Another great installment in the Family Secrets series! Romantic suspense, short fast read, ending a bit abrupt but the next book pics up immediately. Its amazing that this series is written by so many different authors, but is very cohesive! I have the next one here, but will probably finish Davin's Quest before I start it.

A lot has changed since I last posted. Jeffrey is in Catholic 5th grade. Nicole started public Kindergarten. Patrick started cyber school, but for many reasons I put him in the public first grade, which turned out to be the very best thing for him. I really like the public schools here. Jeffrey likes the Catholic school, though his grades are not good. He may not pass the 5th grade. Its hectic to get them all up and out of the door by 8 a.m. Kevin drives them. I usually pick them up. 3 different schools in 3 different towns. But its worth it to have the peace and quiet for a few hours! I send them to school because I need a break from them!

So I have been very active with paperbackswap. LOVE that site. I have spent too much though and need to cut back. I need to limit myself to $25 a month in postage. And I spent over $400 in books on sale at Ellora's Cave, BUT sold a bunch of my personal Playmobil to pay for it all. No guilt. But now I have over, like, well over, 1200 books to be read. So, I have a goal of ordering no more books until July (wish list books excepted). And spending no more than $25 or less to ship books out per month. And my goal is to read more, I'd like to get 25 books a month read!

one of my mom's favorite words! i never know what to say to her when she starts her consequences diatribe! i just read this and its great---

I think the word "consequence" has no place in parental language. We should be talking
about respect, helping, supporting, modeling, distracting, communicating, holding, etc.
Partnership words, not adversarial words. Life has plenty of it's own consequences--we don't need to engineer them or wield them like a club over our kids heads. I feel like it's my job to help my kids navigate and avoid the foreseeable ones.

now if i can remember that next time she starts up.....

Our free little children don't look like controlled, molded, shamed,
rewarded/punished, directed little children. They often look wild, fearless,
determined, raw. Sometimes they look too big for a controlled, disciplined,
"proper" society. They experiment. They feel and express themselves,
including their negative emotions.

Then suddenly, like a miracle that we don't notice until after it is
accomplished - like the peach tree suddenly being covered in blooms - our
wild, difficult, outspoken little children, are creative, open, thoughtful,
outspoken yet courteous, loving, acceptant and tolerant, self-aware and
optimistic teenagers and young adults. They aren't secretly self
destructive, or strangers to their parents.

--Robyn L. Coburn

Yep. I need a sex change operation. Or maybe one of those slip on dildos would work. Anything that will change me from female to male. Yes, now that I am no longer having babies, I have no more need to be female. Why is that, you wonder? Well, I live in a house where 2 adults stay home with the kids 24/7. One does not go off to work 40 or more hours a week. Both are home. Yet it seems that just because ONE of them is FEmale, ONE of them is supposed to do ALL the house work, ALL the laundry, 90% or more of the child care, ALL the pet care, and of course, home school the children as well. So when the floors are not swept or vaccuumed for a week, or two weeks, or a month, or the toilets haven't been scrubbed, or whatever His Lordship feels SHOULD have been done, it is the FEMALE to blame. Merely by VIRTUE of BEING a FEMALE, ALL such duties by DEFAULT fall to the FEMALE. So, I am DONE with being FEmale. From this point on I will be MALE. In fact I think I'll even change my name to ANDY.

Can you tell that I am furious and absolutely SICK TO DEATH OF MY F*ing husband!!!!! Oh but he is SO perfect, the messes that HE makes are SO inconsequential in his opinion, even though he makes as much mess as ALL my kids put together. ANd WHO do you wonder picks up after HIM???????????????

One day His Mother heard me talking on the phone to my friend about the huge collection of cans, bottles and other trash collected beside his bed and how I am not going to clean them up. Well SHE went and cleaned them up. He grew up all his life having her do everything for him. AND YET HE THINKS MY CHILDREN WILL PICK UP AFTER THEMSELVES?????? I have left things of his, that he has left out, for MONTHS AND he STILL did not pick them up. Finally MONTHS later I did.

About a month ago I said I am no longer putting his laundry away....I wash it and pile it up on a laundry basket in the corner of his room. Do you think he has put even ONE thing away? Not that there is any room in his drawers, he has TWO dressers stuffed full of clothes that he needs to go through and get rid of half of. He has refused to do it for years.

Well I refuse to be FEmale anymore. So he will have to have GAY sex with ANDY. Maybe I'll take up male habits, like NAPPING every day, laying around watching TV....talking on the phone while NOT working....stepping over things that could easily be picked up.....leaving cans with tobacco spit in them clustered around on the table by my bed for kids and pets to knock onto the carpet.....

I could go on......but the gist of it is, I need a penis. Going to search ebay now!!!

Anne

Anne
mom to Jeffrey 10, Patrick 7, Nicole 4 and Colleen 2

I am a terrible person. A terrible mother. No better than Kevin!!! Yes what happened last night was a complete accident. I had no intention of hurting him in any way. I just wanted him down off the double stacked toy box so I could put the room to rights. What happened was so awful I can't even bear to write about it here. He could have been maimed or killed. Thank God he will recover from the injury he received. I feel like a failure. I should just give up. I can't handle any of this any more. My life is a train wreck!!! I want my children to have happy childhoods full of love, which I don't believe they can have if they have to go to school. But right now I feel like giving up altogether and putting them in school. Everyone is against me and I am so tired of fighting. With all the ebay I hardly have any time for my children. I want things to be so different! But what choice do I have, I have to get rid of all this train shit he has bought! We so desperately need some changes around here.