Family of 6 in PA

I am a terrible person. A terrible mother. No better than Kevin!!! Yes what happened last night was a complete accident. I had no intention of hurting him in any way. I just wanted him down off the double stacked toy box so I could put the room to rights. What happened was so awful I can't even bear to write about it here. He could have been maimed or killed. Thank God he will recover from the injury he received. I feel like a failure. I should just give up. I can't handle any of this any more. My life is a train wreck!!! I want my children to have happy childhoods full of love, which I don't believe they can have if they have to go to school. But right now I feel like giving up altogether and putting them in school. Everyone is against me and I am so tired of fighting. With all the ebay I hardly have any time for my children. I want things to be so different! But what choice do I have, I have to get rid of all this train shit he has bought! We so desperately need some changes around here.