Family of 6 in PA

and one of them right here in PA. two of these sick men left suicide notes. why did they have to kill innocent children? they obviously knew how to kill themselves since they did so. they didn't have to take the lives of innocent children with them. if they wanted to make a statement or be on tv they could have gone and blown up a store or a train station like the terrorists do. but to target innocent children like that? it blows my mind. parents hope that when they are sending them to school, they are sending them to a place where they will be safe. I believe my 9 yo is safe while he is at school. my evaluation leads me to believe that is a safe, welcoming environment. He is there because HE wants to be. I don't want him to go to school. But I do feel he is safe there. But so did the parents of the children killed at their schools this week!

I would like to take my boy out of school immediately. Not because of the shootings. Because I want him home. The teacher is very rigid and schedule oriented, and the stuff he brings home from school, the home work, is usually really stupid bull shit that I don't want him wasting time on, much less ME who has to supervise him doing it. I want him home....even though he will add a lot of noise and disruption to our day! But so what! At any rate, he knows I don't want him to go to school. There is a field trip this week that he doesn't want to miss! Hopefully after that he will be willing to come home.

There is so much I regret....I really regret ever putting him in the montessori preschool in VA... and so much more. I regret making him go to school last spring. I regret trying the sonlight curriculum. All I ever wanted was to provide an enriching environment where he could do and learn and have fun. But no, I got so much pressure from my mother, and basically she manipulated me into all of this bull shit. The pre school. the curriculum. everything! yeah because I am too much of a sissy to assert my own will with her. well its over. if I want to unschool my children I will do so! And I do so long to. Well the other 3 are being unschooled right now. our home is set up in a very child friendly way and there are tons of things that could be described as learning opportunities. There are things I would like to do with them that I haven't had time to. But that will come. I am not going to beat myself up if I don't do any halloween crafts with them til November. shit happens.

so just waiting for my 9 yo to get fed up with the bs and come home....