Family of 6 in PA

ok, this is depressing. really, it is. makes me feel inadequate as a mother. which of course may be true in any case, as I am one of the members of this dysfunctional, emotionally abusive family. My 8 yo, J, told me today that he thinks he IS going to go to school. he liked the 3 months he spent there in the spring. he's been telling me all summer he wasn't going to go. then the other day a leter came about the orientation, and said what his teacher's name was etc....well he got really excited about it. and today we saw the office lady at a yard sale, and talked to her, she told j his teacher was really nice etc....afterwards was when he told me he thought he will go to school. he mentioed that he liked the lunches, the gym, well, everything! so, as much as i don't like it, i will be 100% supportive. i have told him all along it was his choice. we'll see how he feels after the orientation. i'm sure my dh is over joyed. he acts like he doesn't want him around anyhow, so here's his chance to be rid of him a few hours a day.

i find it hard to imagine a child actually choosing to go to school when he could stay home....J has a strong desire to be with other kids. i will just have to deal with it. i hate being a slave to the school schedule too. i will just have to undertake trips w/o dh, or we will go on weekends, i suppose. well i will try not to fret about it for now.