Family of 6 in PA

the last conversation with my mother is still on my mind. her seeming lack of confidence in my abilities to raise and educate my children rankles. she dismissed my assertion that J just needs more love and parental supervision and redirection. he doesn't need more love! she retorted. well, i like to think i know my children and i believe what i said holds true.

then there is the school issue. from her tone i suspect she feels i will fail at whatever i attempt with him over the summer and he will just have to go to school next year. i caught not a shred of positive thinking from her. like it was predestined. the fact is, i feel i made a big mistake in sending him to school and wish i had not done so. and the only way i will send him next year is if he begs and pleads to go. i do not want my children in school. my girls will not go to preschool either. I also don't want to have 1 in school and the rest at home, I feel it is disruptive, though some families do it well. of course that is not the main reason I don't want him to go!

yes the children need me more, need me to be more available, not tied up on the computer or stuck with the baby, but more aware of what they are doing so that I can correct and redirect before they get into trouble. all else will fall into place with regard to learning. I am not going to try to follow a schedule like I did before (sonlight's). we will definitely be following the math curriculum and doing lessons as often as we can. but we will not be crying over it or any other school work. we will have fun. we will live life. we will go places and do things. we will try to be a loving and happy family.